With just one simple call to my mom, the plans I had for my future concerning high school, university and friends were simple destroyed. We had to pack up and move to another country which meant leaving my friends and the place I had grown to love. I didn’t know how to feel; happy because my mom got a new job, sad because I was leaving the friends I had made or angry because the future was so uncertain for my education.
I was afraid to be honest. I felt like my whole life plan had just being wasted and I would have to start again. I went before God worrying about what was going to happen to me and He told me to stop worrying because He has something better than what I had planned and all I have to do is hand over to Him and trust Him. The whole handing over to Him was the hardest thing I could do because as a teenager I want to have that security and assurance that I know what I am doing and where I am going but now am being told that I should just let go and trust in God. I cried because it seems so easy yet I was finding it so hard to do. I went through the scriptures looking for who I could relate to and I found Psalm 55:4-8, where David wished he had the wings of a dove so he could fly away from the problems and worries he was facing, which was something I was beginning to wish I could do.
After going to this whole stage of fear and worry I began to realise that I had to get off my pitiful horse and look at the way forward, which was first trusting in God before anything else. With this mind-set, God showed me this passage:
“When I am afraid, I will trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid.”-Psalms 56:3-4a
After this I knew I need not fear because God would settle me in His own season and time, all I had to do was trust Him and let His will be done.
I guess what I am trying to say is that change is the only constant in life but we should not let that change be our defeat but rather we should stand strong and trust in God because He knows what He is doing in our lives. Most times many of us think we know what is meant to happen in our lives and we have it all planned out to the last detail forgetting that we are not the ones in charge of our lives overall but God is the many writer of our story (Hebrews 12:2).
Although I still have a long way to go when it comes to letting God do His thing, I am now trusting Him knowing that He has got this and I hope you do to you.